Successfully sprung surprise! I actually managed to not spill the beans (amidst feeling extremely excited) & ordered/shipped this thing properly. Feels proud of self. Haha yes this is the first ever item I’ve ever shipped from abroad, you can call me sloww. 

Today, I started my work week by praying with 2 colleagues and asking for God’s presence to be with us. Only God knows how much this means to me :) Yesterday I went back to youth camp and felt strangely old (people gave me a look when I told them I’m working). 

It all felt like a long time ago. But God is still the same, ever loving & faithful to me. Still so worthy to be praised. Unchanging, in any/every season. 

It’s been one month since I started work, yay! Am thankful for the people around me whose company I am beginning to enjoy more and more, the manageable work load for now which gives me time to read and learn & my mom who has been packing breakfast for me to bring to work. This dear colleague who sits opposite me loves to feed me: apricot, chocolate chip cookie, banana fritter… & I gladly oblige. Sometimes the after lunch sleepy syndrome just propels you to munch on something (chocolate, pocky, chewy junior, bubble tea…) to keep your brain alert. Which sadly, is making me gain weight, slowly but surely :( Been very reluctantly jogging to make myself feel less unhealthy. I hope I keep at this.

Still learning to be patient with myself and asking God to open up my eyes to the needs around me. Been praying specific prayers and God has been answering, in His time. Reminded again and again that people matter to God and no matter how much work I have accomplished that day, if it means it takes my eyes off the people around me, then there isn’t much to feel satisfied about anymore. So easy for me to just jab at my keyboard all day long,  and be consumed by the need to finish that report, finish replying those emails, finish understanding this difficult concept or just be stuck in my comfort zone.

Still excited though, like Mr Greenie upstairs, to discover what this new stage of life brings. Eagerly anticipating the wonder when I realise and understand God’s plans in this season.

Into my second week as a working adult & am still trying to get used to things. Like, being extremely happy to be able to knock off on the dot and go straight home for dinner after that,  feeling like a zombie after I end my day at work, sleeping way earlier than I used to in school. Begin to relish the free time I have very very much.

But, perks of working at Bugis: a lot of very yummy/cheap food around like KOI, Chewy Junior, Yakun etc, my favs! Learning curve is pretty steep but super thankful for very helpful colleagues and boss. Already scheduled to go for my first biz trip to Jakarta at the end of this month with bigger boss (this one a bit scary). I think I’m the youngest in my workplace (which has a few hundred people) and it does make me feel small sometimes, young/inexperienced and all.

It’s so easy to be preoccupied with self these days- striking off the to-dos that never seem to end, replying & filing those emails which also never seem to end, wanting that personal space and time which is so very precious. But I know I don’t want to end up being a working adult who drags myself to work daily, count down to the end of work every day, gripe about colleagues/bosses/morning peak hour woes/work stress all the time & merely exist without living.

God made me for so much more.

A working adult can be passionate about God & about serving even in the realities of work life. To have that selfless spirit towards people, one that is of love. Also to have that child-like faith, not forgetting the dreams that are born in youth.

I really need God so much more every day of my life. (still very far from the above)

- Belong to both lifegroups & happily so! Yet again, God surprises me with His plans.

- I am now a graduate & can hardly believe how 3 years went passed just like that.

- So encouraged by S. She taught me a little more about grace today.

- Suddenly feel like re-watching Full House. It is my all time fav korean drama!

- After waiting for more than a month, I sent an email to IE. IE called me today, telling me that my application is still being processed. I should know the results in a week’s time. Major whew, I thought it was most likely already a no. And I tell myself again & again, God loves & cares for me, He has the best in store. So I will not worry.

- Forming new friendships, not forgetting the old treasured ones too. Old Treasured Friends, please ask me out to catch-up! :)

Enjoyed slogging for GMS with them!

My first lifegroup in NYC :)

With my new unit

New all girls lifegroup! Hehehe love how retarded we look.

So blessed that I got a taste of uni campus ministry before I graduate. Just one sem but I’m enjoying it so much- doing life with the family of God in school, praying for the many lives He put around us, spurring each other on in Him through the deadlines & such. Doesn’t matter that it’s a short time, I still want to invest, still want to give my best in loving and leading people towards Him. So G, won’t You help me? :)

Big sigh of relief. :) That was the last round already, not too hopeful after today. But still, what matters was I did it with God, every little bit of it & knew His presence was with me. It’s my first choice position/company but told myself I’d wait upon God and trust Him. No fear, because I know the God who loves me & has the best for me.

Tomorrow! Another grilling session, last second presentation of uni life with 1 hour of Q&A from the class/prof. Ah, can’t wait for it to be over. Gosh, is next week really the last week of school?

please don’t name it grouchy! :(

So blessed to have you in my life :)

On an entirely different note, sis is making food again! Potato salad this time yum I hope there’s enough for me to pack some to school tomorrow. She’s so good at cooking up random food which tastes awesome: apple pie, brownie, rosti, tart etc..Even the maggi mee she cooks tastes way better than mine (somehow). My dad said that he’s always willing to be a guinea pig (to test the food) as long as I’m not the one cooking it. Boo, but I got to admit he’s not that wrong. Heh.

Its so easy to allow busyness to suck the life out of me. Maybe we get so accustomed to such a lifestyle that we run like clockwork, going through the motions daily, feeling weary and worn out all the time.. All we ever seem to accomplish are tasks and checklists. And we cease to remember that life is not just about us and getting these things. (Which by the way, won’t even matter so much anyway 10 years down the road)

How about that one question of concern, that one encouraging word, that one reassuring smile that you never know may go a long way?

God I pray You’d help me to remember that life is not just about me and my needs/wants. Because I want to love You and love the people You love. With my life.

wonderful time with these girls!

buddyy during shepherds camp! :)

Been two months since I transferred and so many things seemed to have happened. Been to two camps, (YG Camp & the recent Shepherds Camp). And there’s half more sem left till I graduate.  Feels too fast somehow.. Meanwhile the end of FYP is in sight YAY. :D

Today, I bumped into a friend whom I really wanted to spend time with at the bus stop, and had a good long chat with her all the way home (we only live a few blocks away!) Only God knew how much I was dying to do so & He just made it happen. :) :)

On a sidenote, so heartened to see friends from my ex-lifegroup at shepherds camp & serving the Lord wherever He placed us. Always so happy to see them around, even if we just say a hi/bye to one another.

Meanwhile, I’m slowly but surely changing and growing into the fung He wants me to be. This assurance that I’m right smack in the middle of the plans He has for me is enough. I just need God.

Having time on my hands makes me think (sometimes excessively) about my life, about the people around me, God, what He’s trying to do with me, the way I react to people & situations, my immediate future which is still a haze etc etc. Of late, I’ve been getting really frustrated with myself about all kinds of small silly things which I react badly to. Feels like God’s unearthing character deficiencies/wrong perspectives in me and making me face myself with all honesty about these which takes so much courage because I don’t like to feel & admit I’m that bad. But in fact I am still a sinner.

Thankful though, for the love of God that is Lavished on me, that gives me all reason to follow and want to be faithful & fruitful in my life. Because of God’s gift of grace, I know I can always go back to Him no matter how many times I stumble and fall and get angry with myself. This gift is undeserved, yet it didn’t come cheap. The more I feel :/ about myself, the more I understand this grace and how powerful & amazing it is. So not bad I guess? :)

If following God was ever easy, I think something would be terribly wrong because it was never meant to be so. (Not saying that if it’s tough it’s definitely the right way though! Just for me for now.) So I think, I’m going the right way, even if I don’t know exactly what and where. Will just have to keep listening and following daily.