It is a priviledge to have friends serving alongside you.
people whom you can share your joy to (they understand your joy). people who tell you they’ve been through such circumstances before & encourage you to keep clinging on. people who care for your well-being above your responsibility. people who support you with action, not just words, when you need it.
this isn’t earned. it wasn’t promised.
just blessed. :)
‘So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.’
2 Corinthians 4: 16-18 (The Message)
thank You God, for Your grace.
another of those days which cause my thoughts to run amok- such a common feeling nowadays, that heavy-heart, the sheer helplessness & that sorrow which eats at you. so much so that i think i’ve finally got a better reign on them. i choose to stop letting myself get swept away by such feelings. admittedly, its hard. i don’t go away feeling all sprightly and bouncy. instead, i surrender to God, continue to fight on, continue to believe, continue to obey. & God gives me just the right amount of grace for each new day.
mindlessness befriends you in the most subtle of ways & clings to you without you even realising it at times. i will not let it. i know what i’m doing and i don’t do it out of routine. this is my no regret lifestyle.
on lighter notess,
- tmr’s the last day of sch for the sem!
- got my pretty shoes in the mail yesterday
- happy to have made some people happy yesterday
- planned my study timetable. time to start studyinggg.
David proclaimed in Psalm 40, ‘Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done’. most people would consider huge, miracle incidents or events as ‘wonders’. yet they can be as simple as – waking up on a sunday morning, having being well-rested & knowing that God is the one who gave good rest. or it can be having a good friend thoughtful enough to bring you lunch during a project meeting. or even enjoying the time spent with another friend while blessing someone. to me, these are the wonders that reveal God’s love to me.
in the midst of a challenging week, i want to remember to take time, to breathe, pray, think, bless. its the 2nd last week of school, i can’t waittt.
a thought: truth & love come in a pair. you can’t love someone completely, and withhold the truth from him/her. similarly, giving the truth without love hurts too. too hard for the person to swallow, no? tough balance, yet absolutely essential.
Jesus- you’re all that i need & more.
P.S i love mogu mogu! the yummiest drink on earth.
my msn nick read: craving for BBtea
at 110am, kc msn-ed me, ‘really want to drink, jio pk go nus there drink & eat’. he was so serious about it, it left me stunned for a while. (apparently nus still has it at this time of the day?) but it certainly feels good to have uni friends who bother, even though we hardly see each other in sch nowadays. if only i didn’t have to wake up at 7am tmr, if only i’d finished preparing for the meeting tmr!
:) i am excited for tmr. God is with meee.
‘to be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?’
better yet, to be loved, by the King, what more could i ask for.
potentially stressful thursday turned out more than okay. because God sent qiming to help with the very irritating spss/data analysis thing we’ve been stuck at for so very long! it so happened that he sat next to me at hq just as we were about to start doing it. super enlightened after he explained alot of stuff to us. :) thankyou God! He so knew we needed the help.
plus i got yummy coffee from sengkim. heard something amusing from leon. gobbled my fav currypuff in the morning. had lifelong friend as company as we slogged our guts out for the most irritating project ever.
can’t help but be amazed at how real & thoughtful God is in my life.
that i always look forward to the end of the week/the weekend so much. yet its these few days which seem to be the most intense. for the record, no, its got nothing to do with school work. the battle that rages in the mind is the fiercest, the emotion-surge at its peak. i cry out to God so often these days.
‘My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heaven & Earth.’ (Psalm 121:2)
what would i do without You, God?
happy things.
i honestly feel mildly terrified when i think of the week ahead. yet tough week=more opportunities to make decisions that will help me learn to become more like Jesus. even if i feel tired, i don’t want to be whiney. even if i feel like i’ve reached the limit for tolerance, i want to choose to be self-controlled. & i want to give thanks in all circumstances. then again i do feel a tinge of perverse delight in facing a challenging week. ;)
(i’ve got a headache since yest night though, God please make it go away fast fast fast.)
going on the offensive now. go, fung!
dear fung of 2009,
i hope you’re loving God more than i do right now :) Love God, love people.
love, fung of 2008.
a short letter that made me semi smile/tear when i read it this morning. we wrote it at a particular cg a year ago, to the future us. good times come & go, but God’s the same yesterday, today & forevermore.
today, lunch with my family at centerpoint was delightful! & i drove to town for the first time :) yesterday’s j2cg was cosy & fun. i will never forget it – the day phu sat on my hand D: , ): , /:
i want to be the one. to bring faith to the table, to ignite change, to love the most, to see what no one else can see.
‘You did not come this far to quit!
For the rest of your life you will remember today!
I want you to remember that:
You held nothing back!
You did not lose heart!
You did not stop fighting!
You did not quit!’
- adapted from Facing The Giants
(thanks sk!)
ate a huge slice of humble pie again today. this time, no tears of frustration or disappointment. just anger which turned into holy discontentment. a whole load of it. not just going to sit back and hang in there, i’m fighting it out. here’s to show you what not giving up is like.
